Jack

Jack to me:  "Mom, can you stop cleaning?  You are bugging me?" 

If this is age 5.............we are in trouble.

word of the day is LAZY

I am just so lazy lately.  I haven't made it to they Y in 2 weeks.  I don't feel like doing anything except sit on the couch or lay in bed and watch tv.  I want to be a bear so I can hibernate for the winter.  Every year it is more and more clear to me that I need to move to a place where the winters are milder.  Mackenzie graduates this year and John and I have talked in the past about moving somewhere warmer after that.  Now it is so close and it doesn't seem as realistic.  I know Mackenzie wouldn't want to leave Michigan...........this is where she has always lived, her dad lives here, her friends are all here.  So it would be hard to leave her.  Then there is the matter of our house.  We have so many home projects/repairs that would need to be done around here before it could ever sell.  That unfortunately takes money and talent that neither John nor I have right now.  Maybe this year we can make steps toward improving all that and our house.  I have always wanted to move somewhere that I just love and make that my forever home and Michigan just doesn't feel like home to me even though I have lived here now since I was almost 17.  And life is too short right?

Nothing too exciting to report around here.  Like I said I have been feeling lazy.  The boys are tired of being cooped up inside.  They have been kind of hyper and silly and I feel like they are watching too much tv lately.  Jack has really gotten into PBS sprout online.  It is really a neat website and I think he does learn a lot from it and it has the extra bonus of making him feel more independent and being good with his fine motor skills because he is using the mouse and navigating the page by himself.  (wow, how was that for run-on sentence?)  Yesterday we took them to a place called Playworld that has all of this inflated stuff to play on and the balls and hamster tubes.  They had a great time and Jack was braver then I have ever seen him.  He is always kind of afraid of heights because of his balance issues but by the time we left he was climbing up the stairs and sliding down the big slide.  He also bounced a little bit in the bounce house.  I wish I had some pictures but the video I took was really dark.  It looked like a bad b movie so it isn't worth posting here. 



We are supposed to get hit with a bunch of snow tonight and tomorrow so even though tomorrow is February it doesn't seem like there is an end in sight to this winter.  This morning Jack and I waited outside for his bus for 15 minutes freezing our tushies off.  He was in major meltdown mode because he wanted no part of school today and he wanted his jammies back on and he wanted his boots off and and and.  But he made me laugh because he was so mad at me and he kept saying "stop being a naughty girl, mommy!"



All right, I am going to go back to being lazy now while Charley is busy with Legos and Jack is at school.(probably being a sweetheart for his teachers and saving his tantrums for me.)

 

I can't believe it is already the 21st day of January but thank goodness!  It has been a long month/winter and I have cabin fever big time.  I am not much of a winter weather person and it has been cold here.  I have no energy or motivation for anything so there hasn't been anything really exciting to write about.  The sweet guy in the video above though?  He's got energy.  Man does he have energy.  I think 3 year old boys are about as cute as you can get.  His voice, his movements, his hugs.............all of it.  I wish 3 would last longer but I captured a snippet of it.  Little barefoot yumminess.  Love you so much sweet, sweet, sweet Charwee!

Jackisms

 
Yesterday Jack told me he wanted honey toast and that he was going to eat it all because he wanted to be big and strong so that when he grows up he can be a librarian.  Okay then.

Merry Christmas and goodbye to an old friend

Merry Christmas!  We are celebrating a day early because I have to work tomorrow and Sunday.  We are having a good day.  I can't believe how fast the boys tore through their presents though.  I feel like there wasn't enough even though they had a ton of stuff.  Does anyone else feel like that at Christmas?  All of your careful planning,shopping, and wrapping.........and it is all over in minutes.  It was worth it though.  When they woke up this morning and saw that finally Santa was here.  Now we are playing with toys and some of us our still in pajamas.  I won't say who.  I won't tell on you Jack.

about 30 seconds into it

 

 

 

pretty smile

these are the coolest things 

On another note, we decide to say goodbye to an old friend today.  The crib.  I am not sure how I feel about it.  Charley is way past ready to be in a big boy bed but I am not ready for it to be packed away.  What does it mean?  Will it ever hold another precious child?  Who knows but I can't keep Charley in there forever. I know poor me right?  Like I am the first mother to ever feel this and I know this is just the beginning of things that my baby is outgrowing. I will have to post some pictures of Charley in his big boy bed.  I will after I get over my mourning.

**disclaimer**clarification***

I love my life and sometimes looking back on my posts it sounds a little doom and gloom.  I am really not like that.  It feels good to write out my feelings here and sometimes I am not having the best day but after I write I feel better.  Also, a couple of these were written after taking an ambien.  That is my big secret sometimes I take one on the nights before I have to work because I am so worried I won't go to sleep early enough.  Anyway, I don't always recommend that you get on your computer after taking an ambien.  There have been some facebook incidences too.  I'll be honest.  Actually, I am always honest.  Kind of a downfall sometimes.  Too much info.  This post was not written with the help of ambien though just banana shakes and coffee.  Okay enough, talk to you later.

nightly dinner battle

Well, I wish the quality of picture was better but this is Jack sitting at the table.  Notice he is alone.  Yeah, everyone else in our family finished like days ago.  Don't let the fork in his mouth fool you.  He is just tormenting me and teasing me.  That fork is still as clean as when it came out of the drawer.  There will be no food on that fork for at least an hour from when this picture was taken.  This is our almost every night ritual.  I am sticking to my guns though and making him stay at the table until he eats what I have asked him to.  Usually just one or two of each thing on his plate.  I am just hoping it gets better.  That kid is so strong willed.  Tonight's time was about 1 hour 50 minutes until he finally ate his cold little morsels of food.  Then he high fived me and ran up to his room to start the nightly dance party.  


If any of my 3 followers (oh darn, I am one and my huband is another,,,, there is no hope for us) have any helpful ideas or funny way they got their scary underweight, stubborn kid to eat please share.  Those chairs are starting to hurt my butt.

random

I have been avoiding writing here for a while.  Not sure why.  A combination of writer's block, melancholy, and I wish that I didn't add the stupid scale thing to my blog.  Now it just reminds me of how much weight I haven't lost when I look at it or think about writing a new post.  I don't know why it is so hard for me to lose it.  I have been working out and eating less.  Shouldn't it just fall off?  Also, I all but gave up beer completely.  It seems like when a guy does that he instantly loses the beer gut.  Oh well, we just got back from Mexico late Sunday night so this week is full of just getting back to normal and also getting ready for Christmas........but diet?  I will be back to kick your fat butt soon. 


I have things that I am stressed about right now like some things I'd rather not say here yet, money, making sure everyone has a good Christmas, job situation, and a number of other things that really in the whole big scheme of life are not that big of a deal.  I need to let some things go.  I think God is trying to show me how I need to count my blessings right now.  One of my friend's brothers passed away yesterday at the age of 42.  He had 2 small children.  I can't even imagine what that family is going through right now and to have that happen  near the holidays makes it seem even worse somehow.
 

Also, I just found out that one of my cousins who is pregnant with her 3rd precious baby just found out that she was having twin girls but then had all the joy taken away within moments because her girls are conjoined at the chest and share a heart and liver.  She is 5 months along right now and not sure how long she will be able to carry them.  Please follow her blog and pray for her at:

 stevens twins linked with love

 With all of that going on it makes me feel really bad for the silly things that I let get me down.

Also, we just got back from Mexico!  What a great time.  I can't believe how fast it went but I was there and I had a great time.  I even got some sun that Michigan hasn't totally sucked away yet.

dinner for schmucks

So in short I am going to make sure and count my blessings today and start having a more positive attitude.  I think it would help though if I had another warm weather vacation planned.  Just saying